lest we forget;
“cheers darlin’”
7:24 p.m. & 08-05-2008
“because its truth for me too”
i think what’s amazing is that i can’t even find the words to describe how i feel anymore.
and i really like that feeling, for some odd reason.
because it feels like there is no need to dissect anything, no need to reason, no need to try and make this any more or any less than it is.
it just is.
i swear to god i hope you don’t break my heart.
“of a man”
1:25 a.m. & 27-07-2008
and then I feel you breathe
and I let go of the hours
and I feel your skin
and I let you in
and that’s my dream
again and again
I feel the hours
sliding by
if you want this, I do
you’re the only thing that’s real
“… so in love!”
10:37 p.m. & 06-09-2008
i remember alot of rain,
i remember peace -
i remember laughing,
carefree laughter that i hadn’t felt in awhile
it was you;
and i don’t know how you do it -
but every moment with you erases everything else
i forget, forever -
what life was like when my world fell apart
every moment, every breath
seems lighter, longer, faster, shorter;
yet having to know that i can’t exactly do this -
i can’t give in,
i can’t let go,
i can’t let myself be free
i would’ve put my arms around you,
i would’ve held on tight,
i would’ve stopped all conversation,
i would’ve kissed you forever,
had i not felt the need to pull away
but the rain,
you see -
the rain makes everything clear
and tonight, under the falling drops of rain,
i know that i will never be free of this
giving in is near,
letting go is near impossible
somehow, someday,
happiness -
the pursuit of
it’s not an easy road,
and it never will be
but it will be worth it,
and i suppose, if it isn’t -
and if i never ever get there
i wouldn’t live knowing i didn’t try
