stranger danger, stranger danger!

'masochism is a valuable job skill'
~ chuck palahniuk, choke

everything else
is inbetween;

i keep shaking, and i don’t know how to place it.

it’s not the cold, it’s not the tears either, it’s not the fact that i feel really fucked up and broken and ripped into little pieces that i don’t really quite know how to fix now.

it might be the profound knowledge that all of this, all of everything - it’s my own fault.